Everyone needs a good opshop!!

I just spent $25 and 1 n half hrs chilling out on the floor of my local op shop reading second hand books! Ah, hows the serenity. I should have been doing laundry o tiding the house - but :P that will all wait! I should be doing it now but here I am blogging. . .

I have so many things to blog about that I dont know where to start and if I try and blog them all today it will take me two weeks to get around actually post this blog so all I am going to say (and then housework here I come) is I love that I am blogging. When going about my day I cant help but think "what part of my day is worth blogging" this leads me to pay more attention to the details and take notice os the unusual.

The little monster I created also helps me to do this as even though he is not even really talking yet he points to things all day. He notices things that i dont even see and it is wonderful to watch the world through his eyes.

I realise I am not saying anything profound or even original but I really am doing these things every day and it has changed how I feel about the world and my place in it! So I challenge you all to look harder and notice more (you dont even really need to slow down I run all day).

Just see what you can see in your everyday lives that you didnt see yesterday.

TTFN

friend wanted. . .pants optional

Today I told Miss Rae Rillie that she was such a great friend that I dont even fell the need to put pants on when she is around. She then suggested that I should put up a notice looking for more friends that would allow me to be pantless. Hence the pic!!

So while on the topic of friends I want to say a quick hey and THANKS to all the amazing friends I have - I honestly dont know how I got so blessed with so many strong independent kick ass girlfriends in this crazy world!! Could do what I do with out all of you!!

Could say more but it would just get sappy and I should go to bed!

TTFN

The Perfect Weekend!

I dont even know how it happens sometimes but once in a while, even in this CAZY world you can manage to get a couple of days in a row where you simply cant wipe the smile off your face!

And that is how I found myself this weekend.

With wedding business on Saturday - a stunning grassy outcrop over the ocean on Magnetic Island, guests all in white, Bride and Groom in purple, seafood, palm trees, rolling waves, it was a simply magic day!

And today has been a day I could even sneak into my top ten days ever - just hanging out at home with my best buddy in the world! Bub has been a bit grumpy and out of sorts all week (those dam teeth!) But today he was so happy from brekky to bedtime! We read books and played with the hose, walked on the beach and had a picnic by the sea, laughed and laughed and barked and barked! And even had time for us both to nap.

Then, to top it all off he went to bed without any real complaints and I have been on my computer ever since reading some VERY inspirational blogs. OH and I found a new publication that I want to get my hands on ASAP. You should all check out Dumbo Feather.

I do find though that there is a fine line between inspirational and overwhelming. Read a good blog and I go "Hm I should blog tonight" read another one and "I should TOTES blog right now - and start that art thing I have been thinking about all weekend" read a couple more (especially one from a lady who has 7 of her own running blogs, all of which she has posted to in the last 36 hrs) and it is more "I don't think I compare to these - maybe I wont blog at all anymore."

Never the less - here I am - having a go - throwing my hat in ring! In more ways then one this weekend but I will tell you about the other few things when they come to the light a little more.

In the meantime I hope everyone had half as good a weekend as I did!! :)

TTFN

some days its just all too hard!

I pretty much played hooky yesterday - i failed to do much uni and i succeeded in not doing a hell of a lot at work either! Why?? Because it just all seemed too hard - i wanted to hide in a little hole and just sit still for a minute!

Today is not much better though I have made some improvements to the state of our house!

This pic is me at Laneway Festival earlier in the year and I keep thinking about it yesterday because it is just how I felt all day - simply spent!

Today however I am going to get rid of the junk in my car (stuff for vinnies) and I have already cleaned the floor and done some laundry, so I am feeling much more accomplished! I am still pissed at myself for having NO $$$ in my bank account. You would think by now I would be better with money - and I have been of late but this week I bought myself a bike - which is awesome and I am determined to go riding today (with Asti in his little seat on the back!!) - but I some how miscalcuated my financial situation and am now not sure how I am going to put fuel in the car between now and Friday. Lucky the bike is a free mode of transport!

I realise I am saying a lot of not much but I am just forcing myself to Blog! And hopefully in the next few blogs I will refocus and say something worth while.

So in the meantime . . .Peace out :)

time is FLYING!

That last post was really written on February 20 - i just hadn't posted it so I could come back the following day and spell check and reread it - but here we are now April 11 and I hadn't been back until tonight.

Why am I so bad at keeping the promises I make to myself? I need to value my own opinion more and maybe then I will honor the tasks I set for myself better. My first attempt includes this blog - but I need to shut my computer down now and close my eyes before they fall out of my head so I will be back to finish this post tomorrow!

TTFN

And 26 days later. . .

Yep - still sucking at the whole consistency thing as far as this blogging goes. Its been almost a month since my last blog and I dont even know where the time went. I often think about what I am going to write but I just never sit down and do it.

It has been a pretty hectic month, back at work and doing more hrs than I had planned, sorting out my uni subjects, trying (and failing) to still get the housework done - thank god for Kelly.. emotionally it hasnt been a fun month either.

I am having a hard time dealing with Aston's dad - but thats all I am going to say on that topic, because those who know me know it all anyway but mostly because this blog is where I want to come to be positive about my life! And my life has so much to be happy about so to quote the best movie ever made. . ."No we mustn't dwell!"

And I do want to get back to reading the book but I have had this other thought niggling at me for a few weeks now so the book can wait another day.

What i want to know, what I have been asking myself over and over again the last few weeks is - At what point in my life did I (and I just a lot of us) stop being proud of myself?

The light of my life has decided that he going to start walking and it is so amazing to watch him learn. Every day he gets a little braver and a little more sure so he takes a few more steps! It is incredible, however, what makes my heart burst with happiness each and every time is that every time he takes a few more steps his little face beams up at me with exhilaration and joy, but best of all PRIDE. Even when he falls over he is just so excited at how far he did get! And i just don't know when I lost the ability to be proud of myself like that for the small things and the big stuff!?

I don't have an answer just wanted to put the question out there - and I intend to feel proud of my accomplishments from now on (or try to anyway!)

My 5 Values

So its been 5 days now . . .and I'm still not sure what my life values are. I guess number is pretty easy.

1. Family - which now means Aston. I want to do all I can to provide for him and be the best mum I can be. I know that sounds a bit wanky but I really mean it. I also want to take the time though to enjoy watching him grow, learn and change. It has been such an amazing joruney already and he is only 9 months old.

I also love being close to my mum, dad and siblings and am trying o reconnect a bit more with some of the extended family.

Friendship was going to be my number two but the friends I have now are more like family. The group of people I send most of my time with is just one big (often disfunctional and always crazy) extended family!

Now I'm stuck. There are so many things that make my life what is it that I am finding it hard to narrow it down and focus on the most important things.

2. This might seem silly but I think Adventure would be a top five. I want so desperately to travel and explore the world (which i will do just might not be for a few years). So in the meantime I think it is important to find adventure in our everyday life. I want to camp more and all that sort of thing but even trips to the park or walks on the strand. I think Adventure is also a frame of mind - so tackle each ad every day like it is your next exciting adventure!

Helen Keller once said "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."

3. Career/Financial Security - HUH! This used to be my number one or two for sure but more I am a little jaded on the topic. Well not jaded I guess I have just changed how I feel about it.

Career wise I still have goals and ambition it is just more about saving up to buy myself a bookshop to run then being the Richard Banson of my generation.

Financial Security has actually increased in importance but it scares me now (because it seem in elusive concept). And as for the house dream. . .well lets just say I hope we get there before Aston starts school!

4. SLEEP!! Again might seem silly to you (but if your a mum maybe it won't). This is a tricky one though and I actually have to work hard to remind myself to sleep and or rest. As life gets busier over the next couple of months being super organised and staying focused are going to be critical but so is making time for some down time! So I guess I also mean time to read (and to blog). Lets rename for TIME FOR ELLE! Yep I like that :)

I should have made friendship number 2 - then I would be done now and could go to bed!

5. Learning (or Growth) I think will round out my top five. I love to read and learn about other peoples lives and experiences, countries, ways of thinking or seeing the world. I hope to god I finish my official studies this year but I love always learning more at work or from books - hell being a mum is just big learning curve.

I think this is big thing for me at the moment because I have made a few colossal mistakes over the last few years - and while I cant regret them, because I wouldn't be where I am without them, I can forgive myself easier if I learn the lessons from them! Which I am still doing on a daily basis I think.

This blog is hopefully another instrument in my growth this year. I am sure those of you reading this that spend time with me a regular basis will see a gap between what I write and what I do or say over a cup of coffee. Just so you know, I am well aware of the gap! I just hope the more I write and think this way about life the smaller it will get!

Well its WAY past my bed time and this was a hard one to write. . .so

TTFN!