Yep - still sucking at the whole consistency thing as far as this blogging goes. Its been almost a month since my last blog and I dont even know where the time went. I often think about what I am going to write but I just never sit down and do it.
It has been a pretty hectic month, back at work and doing more hrs than I had planned, sorting out my uni subjects, trying (and failing) to still get the housework done - thank god for Kelly.. emotionally it hasnt been a fun month either.
I am having a hard time dealing with Aston's dad - but thats all I am going to say on that topic, because those who know me know it all anyway but mostly because this blog is where I want to come to be positive about my life! And my life has so much to be happy about so to quote the best movie ever made. . ."No we mustn't dwell!"
And I do want to get back to reading the book but I have had this other thought niggling at me for a few weeks now so the book can wait another day.
What i want to know, what I have been asking myself over and over again the last few weeks is - At what point in my life did I (and I just a lot of us) stop being proud of myself?
The light of my life has decided that he going to start walking and it is so amazing to watch him learn. Every day he gets a little braver and a little more sure so he takes a few more steps! It is incredible, however, what makes my heart burst with happiness each and every time is that every time he takes a few more steps his little face beams up at me with exhilaration and joy, but best of all PRIDE. Even when he falls over he is just so excited at how far he did get! And i just don't know when I lost the ability to be proud of myself like that for the small things and the big stuff!?
I don't have an answer just wanted to put the question out there - and I intend to feel proud of my accomplishments from now on (or try to anyway!)
